Math was never my strong point but any and every move I made had to be calculated. It was indeed the Taurus in me craving security and comfort that played a role in this mindset. I needed to know what was going on, when and why. Of course life never offers us this luxury but for the most part, I managed. My relationships before her were not perfect clearly but I had never allowed anyone to own me, in any aspect that is. I had also never felt such a strong sense of security with anyone, being so willing to submit to someone. Until she came along …
I will call her Jay which is in fact her nickname. That day we met was a prerequisite to so much. So much. I was sitting in my office staring at a stack of drafts lost in thought about my recent encounter with my estranged father when my boss Mila tapped me on the shoulder. “Nami? Nami! Are you okay?” I jumped and nodded while asking her what she needed when I noticed she was not alone. “So this is Jay. She’s one of the new publishing assistants we just hired and being that you’ve been here the longest, I just wanted you to be her point of reference if she needed anything.” I eyed Jay and immediately felt a chill go down my spine. She was breathtakingly beautiful. Fair skinned with these honey brown eyes and long black hair. She had such a serious demeanor about her but I picked up on a commanding softness once she locked eyes with me. “Hi, welcome.”, I managed to blurt out. She smiled and said her thanks. Mila then launched into her usual welcome speech and explained some obvious breakdowns that come with introducing someone to a new job. I then heard her say that Jay would be shadowing/helping me with the stack of drafts I had on my desk and I felt a nervousness settle over me. I will confess it had been a minute since I had let myself be privy to any eye candy much less at work on top of that. But it seemed inevitable that our paths had to cross.
Once Mila had finished her formalities and then left us to do our work, Jay and I went through some awkward conversation as I basically walked her through the stack of drafts I had but hit it off effortlessly as we talked about our backgrounds, obsession with coffee, serial killers and food. “You know, you don’t strike me as being into dark morbid shit. You seem like your typical Latina, being into hip hop, spanish music and all that.” I laughed and replied, “Appearances are deceiving. I can honestly vibe to anything if I have a genuine interest to it, music being one.” Jay then went on to say, “I’m mind blown that you know who Deftones is and that you actually like their music and rock in general.” I smirked and explained to her that my dad was really the influence with music for me despite my current relationship with him being strained. I then went silent and shook my head. She said, “Yet another thing we have in common even remotely because my own father was a deadbeat.” Jay shrugged her shoulders and said, “Life still goes on regardless of who’s around.” I agreed and realized we had less than half of the drafts to finish. I pointed out that fact and she smiled shyly. I noticed how she also had a smug air about her smile and blushed. I had no clue why but I was turned on. Reaching for my water and sipping vigorously on it, I glanced at the clock and it read 4:55pm. “Well it’s almost time to go. I really hope your first day was pretty decent.” I said. Jay nodded and said, “Thank you for making it way more than decent. It’s been awhile since I’ve had some meaningful conversation with someone both intelligent and beautiful.” She winked and I just turned my head away and hid my smile. As 5 rolled around, we said our goodbyes and parted ways. I got into my car and took several deep breaths. I knew it was so wrong to have sexual attractions for your coworkers but fuck, I had it bad. The thoughts already circling my mind were enough to have me burned at the stake and then some.
As the next few months went by, Jay was catching on to the job very well as I expected and moved on to being seated at her own desk. Of course it had to be one that was somewhat across from mine so we would occasionally steal glances at each other during the day. Anytime that happened, I felt myself blush hotly and did everything in my power to contain myself. Why the fuck was she so damn fine for?! Temptation being placed right before me and I was fighting my morals left and right. We also would talk endlessly during our lunch breaks and the conversation was always a highlight of my day. I found myself even sad to go home sometimes because I wanted to be at work and gaze at her on the low. Thankfully, my work did not suffer from being like a teenager in high school with a crush…at my damn workplace!
One Friday afternoon as I was wrapping up my workload for the day, I overhear some of the other publishing assistants talking about heading to a local bar called Stiletto’s later on. Usually I would tune out the conversation and leave when these types of things came up but I then felt a presence near me. I looked to my left and noticed Jay leaning casually against the wall near my desk. I instantly snapped out of my reverie and said, “So got any plans for tonight?” She shrugged and replied, “I’m considering going out with the rest to that bar but I’m new so it may be a bit awkward.” I nodded slightly in agreement and then a sudden rush of boldness came over my ass as I said, “Maybe we can go together. I’ll be the ice breaker for you and introduce you.” I saw her eyes light up with happiness and dare I say mischieviousness as she accepted my invite. I smiled and said, “Well I’ll meet you there around 8:30.” We agreed and again went our separate ways for one of the last times, little did I know.
Clad in one of my slinkiest black dresses and heels, hair wild and curly around my face and wearing my favorite Colourpop red lipstick, I made my way towards Stiletto’s and made out Jay leaning against the wall near the entrance. I needed to make sure several times that my jaw hadn’t dropped down to the floor cuz Jesus Christ she was mouthwatering. Her hair was actually down and straightened. She usually kept it pulled up in a ponytail at work. She had on a black button up shirt with black jeans and black shoes. I noticed she changed her gauges to these blood red ones and I needed to resist every urge to jump her bones right there. “Hi.” I muttered shyly. I peeped she was just in awe of how I looked and I silently thanked the universe it was a little dark so she couldn’t see me blushing. “Nami, you look amazing. Wow.” she said in calm admiration. I smiled and motioned for her to go inside. We went towards the bar area where I saw Sandra, Magaly, Jordan, Dimitri and Lianee. I made the customary intros and they all said hellos. Immediately, Sandra yelled shots and I winced and laughed at the same time. I looked over at Jay who just had an evil smirk and said, “Why not?” Within minutes, there were shots of tequila lined up and I took mine immediately. Liquid courage would be needed.
I turned to Jay and asked her what she wanted and she replied, “Well since we just took shots of tequila, I’ll have a Modelo.” I nodded and signaled to the bartender and ordered her drink plus my usual which was their house sangria. The night continued as if we were at work minus some obvious signs of restraint we had to adhere to. I took note of how she drank in everything I said and how I also did the same for her. I also noticed how my coworkers even were drawn to her sense of mystery. Lianee kept giving me sneaky looks like “Bitch, she is dangerous but go for it.” My coworkers knew about my sexuality and were all perfectly fine with it, of which I was grateful for.
I had that glass of sangria, two Coronas and a margarita. Jay had her fair of drinks but still managed to keep that same calm cool composure. She gave me a lingering look as I was rambling about something and said, “You do know I’m wildly attracted to you and have been since day one.” I did the only double take and laughed hysterically. Feeling the effects of the alcohol ever so slightly which propelled me even further to become bolder, I replied, “Oh is that so? I had no idea.” I grinned and took another nervous sip of my 2nd margarita. She grew serious and reached over to whisper the word yes in my ear, then she landed the sweetest kiss on my neck. I shivered in pleasure, shock and ecstasy as I gazed around the bar. I noticed all of my coworkers had left, probably to go to the next spot and it was literally just us at the bar. I breathed in a sigh and said, “We work together. You know people talk.” She muttered, “I don’t care. We can take it slow. Tonight is not the night for reckless abandon but it’s coming.” I felt my temperature rise several degrees as she leaned in closer to plant more kisses on my exposed flesh. I knew there was music loud and blaring at the bar but I fought to stifle a moan. She picked up on my body tensing up and smiled against my skin. I lifted my face up only to have her grab it gently and kiss me. The room dissapeared and my legs melted into a puddle of warm wetness. I pulled away and just looked at her feeling my eyes get heavy with desire. She too had that same look but this one had a predatory, almost primal look. “Okay, I think we both have had alot to drink and should be heading home. I hope you didn’t think I was trying to take advantage of you or anything.” she said with a look of caution that flooded her face all of a sudden. I grabbed her hand and told her, “No, believe me I did not take it that way and you just opened up the only door.” A smirk spread across her face as she replied, “Oh you have no idea.” as she signaled the bartender to close out our tab. Once that was taken care of, she placed her hand around my waist and we headed out of the bar to then head home.
For the record, we definitely did not have sex that night or even come upstairs to my apartment which we coincedentally found out was 2 blocks from hers. I grew so puzzled at how I had never seen her before until she relayed to me that she had only moved here a month ago. I pondered this and realized it made perfect sense since I basically just went to work and came home. I was not much for socializing these days what with dealing with my dad’s bullshit and only just now getting over a horrible breakup. I will confess that I had a hard time sleeping that night. I was a writhing ball of hormones needing to be satisfied. Her kiss and touch left me on fire and craving more. That look of predatory dominance made every single hair on my body stand up and I found myself wanting to be on my knees in front of her. Who the fuck was this woman and how in the hell was I ever going to act around her at work? Even more so, the next time we would be alone.
Wednesdays were always the busiest days in the office. I dreaded them like the plague because that’s when almost all of the deadlines for proofread manuscripts were due. My boss would be on edge and have her occasional bitch moments but none of which were catastrophic. I finally submitted my last proofred manuscript to my sent bin and sighed. I heard Jay call my name from her desk and perked up. She held up her hand next to her ear in a phone symbol and pointed down to her desk. I wrinkled up my forehead in confusion for a second and realized that she wanted me to check my phone. I opened up my drawer and checked my phone to see that she had texted me. I smiled and read the message which said, “Would you like to have dinner with me at my place tonight? I’ll cook whatever you want. :)” I could hardly contain the grin on my face as I seriously thought over the million and one scenarios in my head. Going to her place?!?!? This was really unexpected, forward and so intimate. I inhaled and exhaled deeply and texted her back. “Sure. If you could make a mean ass steak.” I sent the text and looked up from my desk to wink at her. Within 2 minutes, I noticed my phone screen come to life with another text message notification. The message read, “Got you. Rib eye sound good with some roasted potatoes and mixed veggies. I also have a nice merlot if you want.” I looked across the room at her only to find her stealing intense glances at me as if she was waiting for an answer on my face. I nodded at her and smiled. She smirked and went back to doing her work. Needless to say, I was on a bit of cloud 9 for the remainder of the day. As I was walking to my car, she came up to me and said, “Thank you for accepting my invite. Come over at 7 if that’s a good time for you.” I replied, “Sure. Want me to bring anything?” Jay said, “No, just your beauty and perfect company. Already texted you my address.” I blushed and smiled. Then we hopped in our cars to go home.
I rushed over to my apartment to practically dive into the shower, give my hair a good wash, take care of the essentials in lady prepping if you know what I mean and slyly picked out some work clothes to throw into one of my bigger purses. Oh sure I may have been getting just a little ahead of myself but I wanted to be prepared. We had had several sneaky and steamy kissing sessions in various places of the office building and on one occasion, she had my skirt lifted almost to my chest and pulled away at the last minute saying ” It isnt time yet baby. Not yet.” Her composure was unmatched because internally, my ass had zero composure. However all good things come to those who wait so I just sighed and agreed with her. I walked over to my full length mirror in my bedroom and grinned in approval. I chose another black dress (shit I had alot of those) but this one left way more to the imagination than the one I had on at Stilettos. It was still pretty low cut but slightly longer and hugged my ass perfectly. I was by no means a size zero but had hips, thighs and ass for a lifetime. My hair was pulled back in a bun and I had on my favorite gold earrings. I wore one of my Loreal lipsticks but in Stirred which was a wine color. I wore a pair of black heels with a hint of burgundy in the end. I looked HOT. I packed essential small toiletries in my “purse”, grabbed my keys, phone and headed over to her apartment.
The sun was just beginning to set as I rang her doorbell. She lived in one of the nicer apartment buildings. Mine wasn’t all that bad but hers was definitely newer. My nerves were somewhat setting in as it dawned on me that I’d finally be having dinner at her place, being completely alone with her. I snapped out of my moment as she came to the door looking absolutely gorgeous. Her hair was back in a ponytail and she had on a grey short sleeved shirt that revealed the numerous tattos on her arms. I was internally drooling and not just from my mouth either in my head. She wore loose black pants and had on a pair of black Vans. “Hi there gorgeous.” she said with a smile and I replied back saying, “Hey there love.” She gave me a kiss on the cheek and then kissed me gently on the mouth. Jay led me into her apartment which smelled amazing apart from the dinner she was cooking. She had several candles lit and her place was decked out in a dark Egyptian theme. I raised my eyebrows in approval as we had similar tastes. I looked over and got startled when I saw her cat perched on the sofa staring at me with inquisitive eyes. “Hey Nami, I hope you aren’t allergic to cats. That’s Bastet. She’s a mush so dont mind her.” I replied, “No, just didnt expect to see her there.” I set my bag down and settled into the couch and Bastet immediately came over to sniff and rub her head on my hand telling me she wanted to be petted. Jay came over a few minutes later with a glass of wine and informed me dinner should be ready in about 10 minutes. During that time, we launched into a conversation about her place, our favorite foods and our mutual fascination with Egyptian mythology. I couldnt stop laughing at how Bastet didnt know if she wanted to stay close to me or to Jay. She really was a cute cat with her sleek black fur and the white marking she had over one eye. Jay then said, “I think the food’s done so let’s go eat at the table and enjoy dinner.” She took my half empty wine glass and I went over to her dining room table. She also had candles lit there and it was set up quite beautifully. I noticed a small box by where I would be sitting and wondered distinctly what was in there. I got interrupted when Jay came over with the plates of food to then come back with more wine. I became highly impressed when I noticed how artfully she arranged the food on the plate. I told her thank you for both having me over and cooking before digging in. The steak was beyond juicy and I closed my eyes in absolute pleasure before blurting out, “This is so fucking good!!” She laughed and replied, “Why thank you. I see you werent kidding when you said you loved a mean ass steak.” As we ate and talked, I noticed how she intently listened to every word I said and I found myself doing the same with her. She would sometimes reach across the table to hold and caress my hand. We talked about so many things. “So I know you noticed the box by your place at the table.” she said. I blushed at the term “your place” and nodded. Jay said, “Open it baby. It’s a gift for you.” I widened my eyes in surprise and reached for the box. I opened it to find two rose quartz crystals and an amethyst one. I looked up only to see her smiling. “Jay, I am speechless. How did you know these were the ones I was looking for?” I held the crystals in my hand and immediately felt the warmth and energy radiating from them. She said, “You mentioned to me that you needed these because they had gotten lost somehow and I decided to get them for you.” I couldn’t contain myself any longer and ran to the other side of the table to envelop her in a huge hug. She embraced me tightly and we kissed passionately. I dont know if it was the wine or the fact that we indeed were completely alone but the kiss lasted forever. Her tongue explored my mouth both cautiously and expertly and her lips wrapped around mine like they were created for mine alone. We pulled back and she grabbed my ass appreciatively. “Come on baby, let’s have some more wine. Tonight is our night.” I grinned and grabbed the bottle and glasses to head to the living room.
She connected her phone to her speaker and played some smooth indie R&B while I poured us some more wine. “How long have you been single?” she asked. I said, “Ah about a year or so. Just been solely focused on work and healing. It was needed.” Jay said, “I hear you. I’ve been single and pretty much doing the same. Some nights are harder than others but you make do with the situation.” I agreed and replied, “Well it feels good to have some company.” The wine flowed as easily as the conversation. We had several intense kissing sessions along with her grabbing my ass and caressing me everywhere. It wasnt until there was about less than a quarter of wine left in the bottle that she took hold of my face, looked me dead in the eye and said, “I want you. In my bed. So badly.” I moaned in reply as she left a few rough kisses on my collarbone. “Please..just take me baby. I want you. I need you.” I muttered. Without prelude, she lifted me up and carried me to her bed where she laid me down admiring how I looked in her comfortable king sized bed. I looked around the room and noticed her room was all black with the exception of dark grey trim and her curtains were blood red. She got on top of me to kiss me intensely once more and said, “Get prepared for a wild rough ride.”